I don't go to high school...i just go to school high

This is going to be difficult because I measure out my life with a number of things. I'm always things about the possiblites of tomorrow(literally). My preteen expectations of high school had gone awry. Then I came to a realization that high school isn't sbout fitting in---its about standing out. When people oringinally try to fit in, they stand out.Then it changed again to something that has nothing to do with school at all. I measure out my life with exspectations not the now. What will happen what could happen. Not taking everthing to the negitive.I measure out my life with weekdays becasue I now have no weekends. The Good Days, The Bads Days, the Good Years, The Wonder Years...

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Barbie----
It started in 1959-from oringinal anorexic white blond haired barbie, to the black one with the afro,...and so on. Many young girls(some particular boys) like to play dress up, do her hair, and escape into an imaginative world of make believe. For young women, Barbies to them meant how a woman should look. The first barbie was first meant to look like a model. Everyone loves this perfect icon of the american doll.Over the years changes have altered from the chest to eyes.And eventually...skin color! The actual word "barbie" is come into terms of a girl being shallow, blonde,...barbie..icon for anorexia. Today there are different versions of barbie but oringinally, its all the same.

"Sometimes you had to face it. You had to march right into the ugly middle. Otherwise you ended up flat against the wall, creeping fearfully around the edge of your life"-one of my favorite books

To Hope:
"When in my solitary hearth I sit,
And hateful thoughts enwrap my soul in gloom;
When no fair dreams before my 'mind's eye' flit,
And the bare heath of life presents no bloom;
Sweet Hope, etheral balm upon me shed,
And wave thy silver pinions o'er my head..." Keats

I hate waiting. All my life I have been sitting idly waitng on poeple, news, and hope. I had to teach myself at an early age not to depend on people so much. Reading literarture among other things leave me with a greater feeling. Hope is something that no one can take away(though they try). So getting lost in a good book, or a play or a movie or... isn't a distraction its something good